Geared up

Your dream, Your desires, Your social life, Your goals.
What comes after that?
I doubt It'll ever be me.
(let's end this ordeal.)

Life. So wonderful indeed. It's Sunday again. (stresses on the word 'again'). The last day for the week, so torturing. Not that I hate school, just that I got a little tire out from surroundings. It'll get better this week, hope so. Xuelin, It's time to find my brand new motivation for life. There's a desperate need for me to learn to let go, chill out, back down. This week has been so tiring. Cried and cried, for everything. I need to grab onto myself and stand back on my feet again. Now, Just my friends, family and my books. Thrash those memories. Feelings aside for now. Serious. No time should be waste weakening myself. After all that trying to tell myself,'Xuelin, Just one more chance to prove to yourself you're wrong about his actions.' From Grace blog, 'it seemed torturous to be crazily in love with each other. yeah so dun be in love. save the agony, my agony, my tearrsss.' ( It waus for sky of love) But I think It applies for everyone. Since we know what's the ending point, so why not just block every thing from outside of our hearts. This way, we won't get hurt. If you dare, ever dared,to promise you can give a shoulder when I fall, a comfort when I cry, a smile on my face, I'll accept. For now, I make a promise to myself and my heart, Stop making a din. It'us hurting myself too mch. Pushing myself to the limit of the tolerance, isn't a way.

The excruciating pain. Since you can't heal my heartache, Let time help me. Thinking of Hiro gives me power.